Too tired to sleep.

Hey guys, I am sorry I haven't been around in a while. Lately I have thought things have gotten better, but they have done the inverse. As my life is now inverted. I have picked up a lot of responsibility, in an attempt to avoid my home life. Yet for some reason, it still feels so empty. I am basically between getting kicked out of my house, and choosing to move out. Which doesn't make sense to me (I'm not that horrible am I?). Needless to say this is a crossroads, and my hope is too one day move past these and move into what I was created to be...